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Thursday, September 4th, 2008
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But before I do that, I want you to see me, see my eyes, and feel that fucking pain. I want you to hurt, so god damned bad, that you can't even stand.
5 years ago, a lot of bad things happened. A LOT of bad things. They all stem from one small incident.
Fuck You.
All of you.
I don't care how bad some of your situations have gotten.
It's not enough for me.
I want you to all froth and boil, to spend eternity wallowing in misery and despair.
BUT what I REALLY want is to be there with you, with my right thumb, jammed completely into your eye sockets, one by one.
What I want is to be the asshole this time. I want to do unto you what you've all done unto me. I want to fucking HURT you.
SO FUCK YOU. ALL OF YOU. MY SHATTERED HOPES AND TWISTED DREAMS, MY MEMORIES THAT SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN. FUCK YOU FOR PUSHING ME THIS FAR, AND FUCK YOU FOR THINKING THAT YOU'LL BE SAFE AFTER ALL THESE YEARS.
It's not fair. It's all your fault. It's ALL your fault!!!!
God damn it. GOD DAMN IT. GOD FUCKING DAMN IT!!!!
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LOL DISREGARD ALL THAT I SUCK COCKS
(P.S.S. LOLOLOL NEVERMIND I DON'T)
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Saturday, February 9th, 2008
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This Livejournal, for instance. I gave up on it, and just forgot.
But I'm back, and I realize how much I miss writing in this thing, to get my thoughts out.
Le'see, what's new now.
OKAY, IT'S 2008. I'M 22, MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP IN APRIL
I AM WORKING AT WALMART AS A DEPARTMENT MANAGER IN THE CONNECTION CENTER.
I'M LIVING IN A CONDO WITH MY MOM IN BETHEL.
I'M DATING A GIRL NAMED TERESA WHO'S OF THE DARKER PERSUASION AND I LOVE HER VERY MUCH.
UNLIKE MY EX, THIS GIRL I ACTUALLY HAVE A WHOLE LOT OF THINGS IN COMMON WITH.
I STILL HAVE ISSUES REGARDING WOMEN AND HORMONES BUT I'M WORKING HARD AT THAT.
I'M STILL ALIVE.
GEORGE... is... dead....
...and yeah.
LAST TUESDAY, FEBRUARY 5TH: My cat George was acting lethargic and slow for a few days, and on that night, I was worried, so I called Teresa and asked her to come over and keep me company as I worried. She did come, and stayed with me a bit.
...unfortunately, George, at around 9:30, crawled out from behind the TV set area, and barfed up watery stuff, then stumbled and shivered over to the floor, where he collapsed.
Long story short... we took him to emergency care, they said he was dying, and couldn't be saved.
He was only nine years old. I've had him since I was 13, all through my puberty years and growing up. About as long as I've had this journal, pretty much. Or at least, some form of it.
I won't bother writing a humongously long entry about stuff right now, I'll keep it short. I'll put more updates and such as I go, detailing my adventures over the past year and a half, and where I am now.
I'm happy now though. Oh, and a few more quick notes:
I AM NOT TALKING TO MY FATHER, FOR ALMOST A YEAR NOW.
I OWN A 32" LCD HD TELEVISION NOW.
AND AN XBOX360.
I'M STILL A GAMING NERD.
I AM WORKING ON APPLYING FOR COLLEGE (FINALLY).
I'M LESS RESERVED IN WHAT I SAY NOW, SO I ACTUALLY VOICE THINGS TO PEOPLE NOW.
I REALLY DO LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND, AND VALENTINE'S DAY IS GOING TO KICK ASS.
Enough for now. Byebye. -Dante Kuro, Living Lie, Rising Star and a Fungi!
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Sunday, November 19th, 2006
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Hey sorry for not having had any posts in a while guys!
Uh, this is short.
I don't got anything to say xx;
But this comic site has me roaring in laughter lately. www.rumblo.com The guy is pretty funny, like a mongoloid on crack. xD -Dan
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I escaped from the Dungeon of Dantekumitsugi!I killed Raelanenillusia the leprechaun, Bakachan the rat, Xtiff Lordsx the floating eye, Ladylecter47 the floating eye, Aranyavampiress the floating eye, Lma Blo0dybitch the cockatrice and Gothic Knight86 the rat. I looted a Figurine of Blue Origin, the Dagger of Tenchi Muyo, a Figurine of Icecoldtearz, the Armour of Blutigengel, the Shield of Primadonnaa, the Sceptre of Dreamcast, the Dagger of Reading, the Armour of Dieselbaby, the Shield of Melancholicmuse, the Crown of Lurid Innocence, the Sceptre of Love Hina and 64 gold pieces. Score: 289 Explore the Dungeon of Dantekumitsugi and try to beat this score, or enter your username to generate and explore your own dungeon... |
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I'm not confused, but I'm very lost.
I need time to think.
I need guidance.
My head hurts, my heart aches, and my stomach churns violently.
I don't know what to do.
Please show me the right way.
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Okay.
3 1/2 weeks ago, I met this girl named Jenna. She's 25 and the sweetest girl ever.
Yeah I know that's not much of a description, but I'm getting to it.
I kinda liked her the minute I started talkin' to her, and we were talking on the phone for hours at a time before we got together. She lives like 2 hours away, and I drive up there for like 3 days at a time each week so far and spend it in her apartment :3.
I d'no what to say but I <3 her. I really do. She's wonderful to me, and isn't STUPID, and does things for me for no reason at all. A very motherly kind of figure, you could say.
Geh, I'm a bit frazzled right now, and I got home just this morning, but I want you all to know that she is my girlfriend, and I <3 her very very much. So SORRRRRRY but :P, I belong to herrr. -Dante
P.S. If you leave one stupid fucking comment on this I will delete it and just block it.
EDIT: ROFL. I must be on fucking crack I swear. NEVERMIND ALL THAT ABOVE, I SUCK COCKS. No really, forget all that shit. Fuck that. She sucks.
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I just wanted to say that I have a new musical obsession!
There is this guy called Luca Turilli, who used to be in a band called Rhapsody. They were a strange Metal band, with a medieval sound to 'em in a way.
Well, Luca went on his own and took some friends and band members to help him do his own thing, and recently, has also made a band called "Luca Turilli's DreamQuest" which has some infectious songs, such as Virus.
Basically, this guy, Luca Turilli, has some of the most insane songs I've heard and I love 'em.
It's a taste that only some may enjoy, but if you're like me (into RPGs, classic sounds, pulse-beating tunes) then you'll probably like his stuff.
The album I'm listening to currently is King of the Nordic Twilight. One of the better songs on it is Legend of Steel. Here's the lyrics:
Sky became darker when the news there came
His cruel father was coming too fast
Leaving behind him cancer and sorrow
So satisfying his thirst for vengeance
It's time to call the wisdom of the wind
The whisper of the shadows
The sword and the shield the power of the steel
To win the mask of hell
Face the king, ride the wind
For the legend of steel
Leave dark hell behind you forever
Face the king, ride the wind
For the legend of steel
Break the chains of the past forever
Face the king
And so the day came... son against father
Clash of their weapons at the crash of thunder
Hard was the fight in that unholy night
So red the ice was never
The sword and the shield the power of the steel
To win the mask of hell
Face the king, ride the wind
For the legend of steel
Leave dark hell behind you forever
Face the king, ride the wind
For the legend of steel
Break the chains of the past forever
Face the king
"Oh, beholder, what did you do?
May the lord forgive your action..."
The black raven is now flying
While the brave one's slowly dying...
But the swears with last breath: "I'll be back
To take you to dark Alkar, the kingdom of pain!"
Face the king, ride the wind
For the legend of steel
Leave dark hell behind you forever
Face the king, ride the wind
For the legend of steel
Break the chains of the past forever
Face the king
:D If you heard it, you'be like WOAH WTF.
(ACTUALLY, you CAN hear it! I decided to actually upload it! Right click the link and select save-as to directly download it and keep it. It also saves my bandwidth so I don't get killed by multiple reloads)
http://www.mp3-host.com/uploads/a4385.f92c2.mp3 <--- Luca Turilli - Legend of Steel.mp3
also, make sure you save it as an MP3 and not some stupid MPEG file. Windows and Internet Explorer are equally gay, as is Quicktime which you need to run iTunes. Basically, these programs fuck things up so that music downloads don't work right. You'll have to add in the .mp3 extension to it I think when you go to save it. Also, make sure to change the file name. :D Aside from that, the other thing I'd suggest is use Mozilla FireFox to download it. That doesn't change the freaking file extension as far as I know.
Best way to Describe it is this: Symphonic Metal-Rock. It clearly is Metal, that's for sure, but it's done in a way that I haven't heard before, and it's really awesome. It's like classic 70's/80's Metal sounding but then some new things. Bleh, I d'no, you'd have to hear it. (DO ITT)
P.S. Actually, my MySpace page has a song on it from "The Prophet of the Last Eclipse", another of his albums.
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Just so you all can see :D
I hope this serves as the 'proof'. :D -Dan
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Yes, you read that right.
About a month ago, I took my GED test after waiting almost 4 years, and I finally have it completed!
Today, in the mail, I recieved a large envelope with an official letter stating my scores, and then GASP a DIPLOMA!!
But first, the interesting part.
The average score for passing is a 2250 out of 4000. I got a 3540. Well above the average. I aced Science and Math, was like 2 points lower in Social Studies and Reading. The thing that got me mad was I was lowest in my writing portion... then again, it was a forced Essay and I'm not very well with that sort of thing. Ugh.
SO
HERE'S THE BEST PART.
MY DIPLOMA, IS A HIGH SCHOOL DIPLOMA. WITH HONORS. WRITTEN RIGHT ON IT. "HIGH SCHOOL DIPLOMA WITH HONORS"
SO SUCK ON THAT!!! -Dante
P.S. PROVED THE DOUBTERS WRONG, AND KEPT THE BELIEVERS BELIEVIN' :D. ...I did it all by myself, without any help from anybody, and I hardly studied at all. Just me, my brains, and my abilities. Thank you to all who supported me and told me they knew I'd get through it like a genious. And to those of you who said mean things to me, who doubt me even still to this day, and those who would rather see me fail: I HAVE NOT FAILED, NOR SHALL I. I WILL KEEP ON SUCCEEDING IN THE FACE OF ADVERSARIES SUCH AS YOU. THIS IS TRUTH, AND SHALL CONTINUE TO BE.
I shall not falter, nor will I succumb to taunts and idle threats. This has reassured my being completely, and now I know that I will be victorious with whatever I do.
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Wednesday, April 26th, 2006
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Okay okay, yes, I left with a dumb post.
My birthday was pretty fun after that, I got to see peoples, hang with ma' friend Laura and be all WOO. I also bought videogames and was like :D
Also, I have a MP3 hosting account now, and I'm hoping this works!
"I removed the link because it was eating my bandwidth completely"
Check it out :D -Dan
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Eh...
Bad start to my b-day.
At like 12:40 AM on the day I'm all WEE 21.
and being dumb, I log into that game MapleStory cuz it's fun.
and...
My account is hacked and stripped.
Nice.
Nice way to start my day.
I got all pissed and upset.
YES, I KNOW IT'S JUST A GAME, BUT I SPENT REAL MONEY AND TIME ON IT. AND THAT MAKES ME SO ANGRY INSIDE.
That's all. Hopefully the rest of the day shall be fine. -Dan
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Tuesday, April 18th, 2006
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So. Yeah.
This Friday, April 21st. I'm gonna be 21.
WOO! I guess...
I'm not sure how I feel about this.
I HOPE IT GOES WELL.
That's all I hafta say for now. -Dan
P.S. I got photoshop!
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So I'm bomping in my car with the windows down, playing some insane music that is blaring out for all to hear, with my bass pumping (and it wasn't boosted mind you... NATURAL BASS, HOMG!) and the Treble soaring (same thing, MY MUSIC PUMPS)while I go out to Wal-Mart to get a belt and hold my pants up, and I start thinking.
What am I gonna do with myself?
But then I realize, it doesn't matter, because I already have my life going full steam ahead and I'm happy with it. I have 8 months of car insurance already paid for, I'm getting my car and computer paid off real soon, and I'm getting hours at my job. I'm moving ahead with my life and doing well :D I still wonder though...
Where am I going?
Back to the past, I got myself a nice belt, and so I slapped it on myself, and was happy that I no longer had to hold my pants up with one hand :D. I then suddenly felt the weight of my balls, as I picked up my cell phone and called my FATHER (HOMG!). I left him a message, and he called back soon after and left me a message in return. Was okay actually. I also left a message at my ex-stepmother's house for my sisters (DOUBLE HOMG). Yes, my balls were feeling quite heavy. I then checked up on my pre-order of Kingdom Hearts II at GameStop (MARCH 29TH :D HOLYHOMG) and ran to my car. I was going to get groceries for my mom at Stop and Shop across the street actually. The thing is, when I got in my car, I sat there a second...
Am I doing the right thing?
I often wonder this actually. About the things I do, and say. I think about life and what's going on... Lately, the past few years have chipped away at my being to define it into something precise. I'm starting to put my foot down, and not run away. Like, with people. Too often do people forgive and take back. Like, for instance, that kid Shaun Fitzgerald. I think he's an asshole, and a liar, who tried to fuck with me, the same with Randy Best, he did that too. Now, those two 'kids', I'll never be friends with, and I don't care to. Now, they might change, or act different, and the choice will come up where "I can be friends" with them. I STILL say no. I'll say "No. You already acted against me, and I have seen how you are. There is no 'other side' to a person. It's just another aspect of you. But it's still YOU. IT'S YOU. AND YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE". ...but that's when I wonder
What makes me any different?
So yeah, I was sitting in my car, thinking these things, and I came to a realization. It doesn't matter. Again. It really doesn't. I know who I am, and what I am. I am Dan, and I have my goals, dreams, and thoughts. I do not lie to myself or to others as to WHAT I am. With that, I drove off to the grocery store and continued my day. Now, here I am, at home, groceries are all put away, and I'm going to relax tonight. Sit back, play games, do whatever... playing Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories before KH2 comes out. I wanna have the full story :D Aside that, just living, doing stuff, y'know. Okay then.
...still, there's always that one thing...
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| Time: | 2:19 pm. |
| Mood: |  mellow. | | Music: | The Pillows - Hybrid Rainbow. |
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So there's this addictive and really annoying MMO I play called Maple Story.
Yeah.
The first server ever made is filled with noobs and 12 year olds and it's annoying.
So I made a new character on another server.
Server = Broa
Character name = DanteSugi
So yeah. For anyone that cares or plays.
In other news, my job is REALLY pissed at me. For a number of reasons. I'm a real smartass at work, that's the main thing, but also, I screwed up one day when some lady scammed me outta baby formula. Ugh.
Also, I keep saying I'll come in during my day's off but I can't because my mom has been sick still, and I have to keep taking her to the doctor and hospital almost every day. :( It's not fun for her.
So yeah, I'm looking for a new job that will pay me more and all that jazzamaphrazz.
Hm.
Today, I look to my left, and see out my bedroom window. The sky is blue, and a few white clouds go by. It reminds me of Summer, almost.
Spring is coming, and soon the grass will grow, the leaves will be green, and the air will be warm.
I'm happy thinking about it. :D The summer brings about so many different feelings than Winter does.
Freedom, Relaxation, and a sense of wholeness, I suppose.
It makes me feel like everything is okay during the summertime. I d'no why. I also enjoy work a lot more.
The Summer brings such good memories for me. Like driving to that Temp Job I had for an hour with the windows down, blasting my FLCL CDs out the windows, and getting out of my car in the hot sun, just looking about me. The green trees all around, with just...
It's just a happy feeling. I feel so incredibly happy on a warm day, when traffic is low, and people walk everywhere. When the trees are full and the flowers are out, and being able to drive off to nowhere, and relax in a spot in the woods somewhere. It's nice.
The kitties will be playing outside for hours, and my room will be lit up bright, as I play silly music loudly out my window, and then go driving in my car to nowhere at all. Or going into New York City, and walking around in China Town. Holy Crap, that was invigorating in the weirdest way :D.
Yeah, I'm being redundant, but it's just such a happy feeling for me.
The Summer I met Shibby, the Summer I spent with Courtney, the Summer when I was back and working. Such good memories. I wonder what this summer will hold. -Dan
P.S. Siiiiiiiiiiiiigh. Long, heavy, drawn out sigh, but with a high note. :D My Birthday is coming up as well. April 21st.
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Wednesday, March 1st, 2006
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Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
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Well.
My mom is in the hospital right now. She had a baseball-sized cyst in her guts, and they took it out last night. At this moment this is being written, they're studying it to see if it's malignant or benign.
She's okay though.
I'm taking care of the house, and I have today and Friday off from work, so w00t. I'm gonna take a shower tonight, clean up the house a bit, get some stuff for the fridge, and visit mom. Y'know, just usual stuff.
OH. Yes.
I'm sure many of you will get a big kick out of this one.
My friend Manda got me a T-Shirt.
A very funny t-shirt.
It's grey, and on the front, has a big red DANGER label.
Underneath, it says this: "GIANT PENIS"
DANGER: GIANT PENIS!!
I'm sure Sonia will get a kick out of that one xx;;;;;
ANYWAY.
I'm gonna go take care of some things and feed the kitties. -Dan
P.S. Bleh. That stupid cat of my mom's likes to sneak out and hide in the dark xx;
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Friday, February 17th, 2006
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| Time: | 10:32 pm. |
| Mood: |  amused. | | Music: | New York Ska-Jazz Ensemble - Zinc. |
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Just interesting news.
Working a lot.
Talking to Manda from MI. ^^; Things are... interesting. :D
Nothing new really.
I imported a bunch of CDs I own through iTunes to put on my MP3 player :D I gotta convert them to actual MP3s soon, as well.
Umm...
OKAY
Each day, I am going to post my work schedule for the next day or two, to keep people informed as to what I am doing.
For Saturday, the 18th, I am working from 10AM to 10PM. 12 hour shift! DAMN. Yeah, it's a long day, but I need the hours, and the money. :D
Sunday, I'm working from 2PM to 10PM. Meh, 8 hours.
Um... I d'no. I got a nice Valentine's thingie ^^; And and this really cute little kitten doll I found at work today, and I bought it, and it's like MYOWWW kawaii and stuff. Okay, I'm done. -Dan
P.S. Yes, I'm tired, and happy.
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Saturday, February 11th, 2006
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| Time: | 4:46 pm. |
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I swear to god I'm gonna call the fucking cops, or buy a gun.
I'm being harrassed by these stupid kids. First, they stalk me when I had to work at the mall, then they randomly call me today.
I am sick of this. People are stalking me just for kicks and it's creepy. I bet they probably stalk my journal too. That's an unsettling thought. I mean, what the fuck. I left these fuckers alone for a while now, I haven't even bothered to care about them, and I don't even care TO ever see any of them. I've fucking left them all to themselves, and here they are, constantly stalking me like some sort of game. Ugh. I wish they'd all just go the fuck away and die. I don't care!
Just the idea that they take the time to just go out of their ways and bother me. Even the little things. Like randomly saying "HI DAN". WTF. LEAVE ME ALONE. JUST GO AWAY.
I LEAVE YOU ALONE, SO YOU LEAVE ME ALONE.
Really though, you know who it's about. That kid Shaun and his little friends and my ex-friends. He called from some new number I guess, so if I hear from him one more time, I'm calling the cops and giving them that number. I'm not playing around with this shit. I'm really not.
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Tuesday, January 31st, 2006
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You see it! Look!
W-what?! Hey, who are you...?
OH right. You've been kept away from me... well you know that whispering you hear in the wind? The gentle breeze in your ear? That's me! ...sometimes.
You're... very different.
Yes, I know. I know and you know and so does the other one! WE all know this!
So... what are you talking about?
...it's talking about your friend.
My friend?
Quiet! Don't act all big this time! It has nothing to do with you!
I'm still here though!
...what's... going on?
It's a coming together of things, and yet it's not!
...of what?
Your friend managed to... escape the darkness.
Escape?
Well, not so much escape, but she pulled it all together, and let herself free!
...did she truly?
I can't tell you that. I am not even sure.
That doesn't matter! Not now, not now!
You're both... acting very strange tonight.
It's a twisting, turning thing.
A what?
Something's happening. You're drawing closer upon it.
Heh, I suppose you're right this time!
...we may not be here much longer then.
W-why!? I still don't know what to do! I still feel lost...
YOU WON'T.
...how do I know?
YOU DON'T, BUT YOU FEEL IT.
I do?
Wait.
I do.
It's starting to make more sense now.
Does that mean...
We're not gone yet.
You still give us purpose for being here!
When will I know?
I suppose... when you trust in me...
And if you can comprehend what I say...
...then I'll be able to pull away from the darkness?
Is that even possible?
Hehehe... I don't really know, but I don't care right now either... I'm off!
Wait!
Don't bother. That one is a nuisance anyway.
What about you? Why do you stick around?
I'm here to help, remember?
What about the other one?
...that's not help. ...I don't know WHAT that is, actually...
I think... I'm getting closer to understanding.
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I want... to take a blacksmithing course. And learn to make a sword. -Dan
P.S. So where do I go from here?
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exhausted.
accomplished.
creative.
indescribable.